Hell.

Alrighty so the newest of newest is that i have destroyed someones opinion of me. No it is not that of a lust after candidate, a best friend or my boss but one of my dearest friends parents. I really can not shake this feeling of just total, utter shame.

It all goes back to me having such great concern for this friends well being so with out getting too involved i wanted to make her feel better, see the brighter side- that she is nothing like those poor excuse for a human being, so called ‘friends’ of hers. So in stepped Facebook, as i have said numerous times before but will now put it in writing ...which is the devil!!

I simply repeated a slightly slanderish style comment made about girls who flirt with ‘Every Tom, Dick and Harry’ which may have involved some not so pleasant terminology and wadda you know.. Mother see’s it and i’m sure that i have destroyed her and the whole families good opinion of me.

No longer am i.. ummmmm (am quite puzzled at this point) mature, kind,

innocent,person you’d want your daughter to be like Jamie? I have joined the likes of Facebook were we shall

both dwell in the inner depths of hell!

Plan: to camp it out for the winter.. or at least a couple of weeks before i go knocking on their door. Arghh i can just imagine the look on their face when they see me again. The ..i’m not to impressed with you, can’t look you in the eye gaze. Ohh higher power please tell me there is some meaning behind this. Actually maybe there is.. maybe it’s because i need to not see them..her.. him..for a while. I’m becoming too dependent?!?(in a distant meaning of the word) .

Yer.. i think i’m just going to breathe, let some time pass and see what happens there.

Okay, i am convinced that this is a sign.

Jamie, calm down and stop.

Dependency = vulnerability

and i know we’ve had this discussion before. Where has vulnerability gotten you.. that’s right. No where!! This is the worlds way of stopping me from getting hurt. Damn you cruel world!

and just on a finishing note. Facebook really is terribly detrimental to one’s health. I have thought this before but this little scenario further supports my belief. It just allows people a glimpse at the inner most workings of your personal life and therefore allows them to draw what will most likely be unjustified opinions about you from the smallest amount of information,

a photo, a comment.

So word of the wise Jamie to all and back to myself. Step away from facebook.

Lets all hope for better times.