Sometime i feel like.. 'life' (that's a pretty broad term there but my mind is tripping) is easier when you have nothing. Well there's another stretch of words. What i mean is that maybe it's just simpler to not feel. To not develop close friendships and most definitely relationships because it just puts a mountain of pressure on you, to be this (nice, sweet, gentle, polite, caring) persona these people have come to know. I'm sure we all go through stages were our different traits are more prominent than others and its daunting to show people this other side of you. How do you know if they'll like it? Will it alter their once strong opinion of me? Will i no longer fit into their little click?
I don't know why i'm so caught up on this because you shouldn't worry about what people think of you. In the end those that matter do not mind and those that mind do not matter. Its becoming increasingly hard to be your whole and true self these days so those who are not affected and do not wield to this pressure. My hat goes off to you.
I think at times like this, it calls for some T.L.C from me to me.
G-d and Jenny give me strength.
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